Taking things too seriously

I have been lately been a jerk. Trying each moment to pull somebody's legs. As i did with Abhi. I knew he is under stress and still i tried to make funny of him. When the guy replied the answer, i tried to screw him. I made a situation that he has to write a formal letter to say sorry. I do not know why i am becoming like this. I tried to make fun of people who loved me a lot. That's really bad. May be i am afraid of the people who love and like me. I have so much bad qualities and most importantly i try to annoy people. What the crap i am . Well i know Abhi is going to feel my behavior for a longer time. May be one day i will stop behaving like this and will enjoy my life. till then let's forget everything and enjoy life..Just relax and chill........

Sandeep, the funny lover

Well when i was in Seattle, i liked the character of my roomies Sandeep. A guy from Vizag,having MS in US and working with my company in Seattle. What i wondered about him is coolness and the answer yes. You can hardly hear no from his mouth. We used to fight each day and i guess i will miss those fights. I challenged him to become like a model by tightening his abs and he went to gym to win the challenge. He is religious in doing gym. May be he is too lazy to cook and more over when he is talking to his fiancée, he never cares anybody. He is a dedicated lover. He talks so loud you can hear what he says from distance. He knows to cook Sambar and rasam but you have to prepare dal from him. We always laugh on him for his do not care attitude. But i think he is a cool guy. He always talks a lot as long as you do not bring her fiancée in the topics. Once you say that you are going to tell her about those crappy stuff, he just hibernates. I always wonder how a guy can be so dedicated to someone. I have seen such a dedicated one after Shibani and Naresh. He is a total family guy i guess. When i see him, i see a total opposite person. He is not worried about anything except talking to her. I on the other hand never can commit so much to anybody except food and sleep. He is having the longest courtship period ever i have heard. Poor guy after engagement he has to wait 2 more years to marry her. That needs a hell lot of Patience man. well hats off to the funny lover.. Enjoy the life as you used to Sandeep.. that's special of yours....

Bye Bye Seattle..The ever green state

Finally i left the memories of the ever green state behind to reach Baltimore. I will miss the weather, the beauty of nature, the people and moreover my friends over there. I had really blastin Seattle. I got my DL over there.Sometimes i wonder, is it good to travel around or settle at a place. But i guess as they say "the bird which flies a lot knows it's limits". When i used to look through the window in my apartment in Seattle, it used to give me a fulfillment of happiness. More over friends around make it more merrier. Now when i sit in my hotel room and see through the window, i see the roads and emptiness around. I will shift to apartment soon. Because i guess, i am afraid of loneliness. May be i want people around me. I do not have that quality of living alone like Abhi or Pankaj. I have to build from scratch in Baltimore and i guess that is essence of life. It gives you to identify your potentials and make new friends. Welcome to ever changes of life..................

looking through the window...

When I sit in the apartment,
when I look through the window,
the sun rays kissing the green grass,
the cool breeze touching the senses,
it gives a heaven satisfaction,
it tells to submit to the feel of sensation.

I ponder over my situation,
why I am sitting ideally with frustration,
suddenly I have got leisure,
but no wish of enjoying this time,
I want to keep my self busy,
I want to race ahead in the rat race.

I do not want to bug down with the slowness,
this is the time to fight the battle,
this is the time to win and enjoy,
I do not want to slow my pace,
I am ready to fly as I have wings,
I want to see the world and see the beauties.

Just counting the days when I will run through the window,
may be the days are not far away,
may be the break is much needed one,
but I can't keep sync my mind and my heart,
I try to relax but I can't,
may be restless I am,
just counting the days to fly again by looking through the window...…

Life in Metro--Is it real

Yesterday i saw, the movie Life in a Metro. a great movie with good performance and good script. As usual Kokan and Irfan stood out. KK has a negative character. Shilapa and Shiney were good.

After watching that movie, i was afraid living in Mumbai. May be the movie is too much one sided. may be it has all dark shades of Mumbai. I personally does not believe that India is such materialistic. In taht movie, one thing is sure. It presents the call center life in a big negative way. It also shows another aspect of life. It shows how people are ready to do anything when they see a shortcut to success.

Personally i feel not everybody does like that. Also there is a limit to compromise else you have no life. Human become a machine. that movie literally shook me up. May be that is reel life not real. But if that story is 10% true and happening in Mumbai, then beware of Mumbai girls and jobs. After watching that movie, i was thinking what the hell is happening in India.

Is the country suddenly changed overnight ready to broke all the shackles and become westernized. May be god knows. But i believe still India is like the one that i wished and dream of. May be i am too orthodox and not able to embrace the changes. But the movie ends in a brighter note by all characters revolting against the self imposed shell. Some of the movies of bollywood has been really good and experimental and realistic unlike those chocolate stories.
May be it is time for me to leave the story of left behind and look towards the sunny days i am having in Seattle...Life does move forward.

No I don't wanna wait forever-- by Snow Patrol

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you,
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me,
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out,

There you are standing right in front of me,,
There you are standing right in front of me

All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I don't wanna wait forever,
No I don't wanna wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes,

There you are standing right in front of me,
There you are standing right in front of me,
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

There you are standing right in front of me,
There you are standing right in front of me,
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

No I don't wanna wait forever,
No I don't wanna wait forever,
No I don't wanna wait forever