Does my heart need companionship.............

Aagain comes a weekend, which gives me plenty of time to write something in my blog. It has been kind of confessions which you make to god to feel light after heavy work. I can say it has been kind of releasing tensions from head. Thanks to deba for inspiring me. It is another way of expressing myself. I used to record my daily events in my diary when i was in my teen age. Somethings, which you can not share with the world but can share only with yourself. As i was walking today with my roomie, who recently got engaged, i was dicussing this. SInce he got engaged, i could see him spending half of his time over phone and half of time in front of movies. Whenever i think of companionship, commitment comes to my mind. In college, i have seen so much love stories, which were based on this theory. SOme faded and some got their way to glory. I thought for sometime about myself. Why suddenly i am more worried about all these (non-sense thing, which i always say to my friends) topics? Have i got more lonely in US among friends or i am in a junction of age where your heart does not go with mind. Am i afraid of commiting? I even do not know all these answers and i am also searching for them. When i was in college, i had only one theory. True commitment breeds companionship. But when i sit on my balcony seeing the distant greenery, i always finds myself in dilema. Even among friends i feel lonely. Everybody goes through this phase and i think this phase helps you get closer to decide what you want from life. Really this weekend seems pretty long for no reason. May be i am missing Rashmi's callas and Gunjan and Deba's phone and pinging in gtalk very often. May be i am missing talking to shiabni and tina, which i used to do every fortnight.May be even with all of them my heart feels lonely. May be it wants sometime alone in some distant park to decide priorities in my life. May be it is waiting for somebody to share my thoughts..............